Grieving for someone who is alive

Her smell, her embrace, her laugh, her seriousness, her favourite colour, her jewellery, our jokes, our late night sleep overs. I remember how much I loved her, how intensely I needed her acceptance, validation and her friendship. I remember making promises of a life time of friendship and jokes of being an “aunty” to her children. I remember how afraid I was of losing her… … Continue reading Grieving for someone who is alive

Discriminating group therapy leader

I find it so frustrating when people compare their mental illness to BPD like we are in different classes. Arnt, we are all mentally unwell? When you are in groups and someone talks about BPD and the comments are “oh people with BPD they are so mentally ill, you can’t reason with them.” “They are manipulative, they don’t want to get better or care about others.” Me … Continue reading Discriminating group therapy leader

Occupational Therapy and the PD Stigma

This is an open letter to colleagues far and wide, in the UK and across the pond. With an estimated 1 in 4 adults having a diagnosable mental health condition, chances are not only will a portion of your caseload have a mental illness, but there’s odds that so will some of your colleagues. I am 1 in 4. You would think that, given our … Continue reading Occupational Therapy and the PD Stigma

I have Borderline. Hear me ROAR

So today for the first time I shared briefly to my third years I have Borderline. We were discussing how violence and trauma can present itself in multiple ways and result in mental illness, drug use, self harm and alcohol misuse … They already know I am a mental health advocate. And who knows! some might be following me on here. But A room full … Continue reading I have Borderline. Hear me ROAR

I Should Be Better by Now…They Said

I should be better by now, that’s what they said. (Trigger Warning) An important part of a conversation I had yesterday with my psychologist. Me: They said I would be better now, they said that this would pass. That happier times would come. I’ve been living like this since I can remember. I’ve been in and out of hospital for years. Everyday I’m in so … Continue reading I Should Be Better by Now…They Said

From dependant to independent – Creating your own Identity

It’s time to go it alone – strategies to go from co-dependence to independence My whole life I’ve wanted connections. To be liked. To be someone’s best friend and to never be alone. The danger with this is that I’ve moved from one dependant relationship to another dependent relationship my whole life. Never having my own identity. For a year now I’ve been mourning the … Continue reading From dependant to independent – Creating your own Identity